My ‘story’ starts with me in a fantastic job, as a senior leader in a large organisation. The role was everything I wanted, exciting, using my strengths and knowledge drawn from over 25 years of experience working across many disciplines.
I lived away from home during the week which was exciting initially and I felt really independent and positive about it all…. but then things started to change and I felt that maybe I’d gone too far. I didn’t feel right.
It wasn’t just work-related. I felt guilty not being at home to support my teenagers going through exams, isolated from my friends, and then my elderly parents started experiencing declining health and I couldn’t be there for them enough. More guilt. Menopause symptoms weren’t helping either!
I struggled on
I felt the pressure of the relentless pace which I’d always enjoyed, but gradually I started doubting I could keep it all together. I’d always been calm, quick-thinking and often called ‘a safe pair of hands’, but I didn’t think I was living up to that. I struggled on hoping something would magically change – when we hit that next milestone it would improve, when we got more staff I’d have more capacity, when this, when that, but of course it never happened.
The circumstances I was in, and had designed through my choices, eventually found me
- experiencing palpitations and my first ever panic attacks,
- feeling continuously exhausted but unable to sleep,
- having ‘brain fog’ which made made quick decision-making a real challenge,
- feeling constantly on edge, wishing that I could bolt out of the nearest door.
I eventually accepted I wasn’t ‘functioning normally’ (or my version of it, anyway!) and knew I would have to do something about it quickly when the panic attacks happened. They were frightening.
It was a serious wake-up call and changed everything for me.
I made the decision to leave the corporate world and to explore a different way. It wasn’t an easy decision, but I knew it was the right decision as I’d been close to burnout.
Whilst I regained my own strength, I built on my knowledge of how the mind works, where our resilience comes from and more. I studied NLP, Hypnotherapy, Emotional Freedom Technique, Energy Alignment and more, and established my business.
Then I came across another approach – a relatively new approach to psychology based on the discoveries of a man called Sydney Banks that changed everything at a deeper level for me and underpins everything that I now offer my clients.